I realize I’m the last person that you want to hear But it wasn’t long ago I was all you wanted near Oh and relatively speaking I’m okay now In comparison to others I have found my way now And though I’d like to think I was something special to you In truth I think you would say I’m a phone call you don’t want to make And an old song you don’t want to sing I’m a chance that you don’t want to take anymore I know too often I went too far and caused us both hell I know that I was too harsh to you and soft to myself All you waited for and thought was right in me is lost now I’ll use metaphor to clarify the total cost now And though I hope at least I’m a pleasant thought now for you In truth I think you would say I’m a phone call you don’t want to make And an old song you don’t want to sing I’m a chance that you don’t want to take anymore I’m a phone call you don’t want to make And an old song you don’t want to sing I’m a chance that you don’t want to take anymore

I thought I needed you but all I needed to do was Call out your name You had nothing to say Why did you never speak when I pleaded for a reason? For all I know you weren’t there in the first place They’re in my head again The things that I should have said And all I have lost when I’m too scared to talk I think it’s all in my mind I’ll make it different this time Here’s all the things that I wanted to say I don’t want your love (3x) Your love isn’t love And it’s not enough And I want none of this at all I’m clinging to a feeling And talking to the ceiling What would you say if you saw me this way? They’re in my head again The way that I should have been And all I was wishing would come true with you I think I’m overthinking Trying to swim while sinking Here’s all the things that I wanted to say I don’t want your love (3x) Your love isn’t love And it’s not enough And I want none of this at all And I don’t want your love What would you say if (2x) What would you say if you saw me this way?

This might be too soon but I should tell you I love you too but I love you too much If I do nothing You will consume me ‘Till nothing’s left in me and I’m desperate All this makes me feel too much I am exposed without composure And we’re only getting closer to everything that gets us older This might be too soon But I should tell you I love you too much, but I love your flaws Love the way they make me hate you enough That I don’t even miss you when you’re gone Love the way they make me hate you enough That I don’t even think of you at all This might be too late but I should still say This is the best so forget the rest of All I’ve been thinking though I’m still sinking Crawling to stand Choking from my own hands Maybe this should not exist ‘Cause after all I thought we’d been through I’m afraid that all I have is used And afraid that’s not enough for you This might be too late but I should still say I love you too much, but I love your flaws Love the way they make me hate you enough That I don’t even miss you when you’re gone Love the way they make me hate you enough That I don’t even think of you at all

I was high on the moment thinking I was God Now I’m standing here left to think the dirtiest things we thought The dirtiest things we thought Just the dirtiest things we - I was wrong and I knew it Thinking all I’ve lost Now I’m standing here left to think the dirtiest things we thought ‘Cause now they’re all I’ve got Just the dirtiest things we thought The more I’ve thought about it the more I’ve seen That I said some things that I didn’t mean And I’ve tried so hard to be strong Despite my weaknesses crawling at my knees and coming after me, yeah The more I’ve lingered on it the more I’ve grown And I didn’t know the things that I know now Despite that I’m still no good at coming up with excuses So I hope the truth can still be told (And truth be told) I don’t know if I can make you happy (Truth be told) I don’t know if I can make you feel much of anything at all But in truth I hope that I’ll be picking up the pieces It’s just that I was high on the moment thinking I was God Now I’m standing here left to think the dirtiest things we thought The dirtiest things we thought Just the dirtiest things we - I was wrong and I knew it Thinking all I’ve lost Now I’m standing here left to think the dirtiest things we thought ‘Cause now they’re all I’ve got Just the dirtiest things we thought The less I think about you the more it’s clear That I never said what you need to hear and Babe, you wanted me to be your savior but under pressure I just melt Can’t even save myself (And truth be told) I don’t know if I can make you happy (Truth be told) I don’t know if I can make you feel much of anything at all But in truth I hope that I’ll be picking up the pieces It’s just that I was high on the moment thinking I was God Now I’m standing here left to think the dirtiest things we thought The dirtiest things we thought Just the dirtiest things we - I was wrong and I knew it Thinking all I’ve lost Now I’m standing here left to think the dirtiest things we thought ‘Cause now they’re all I’ve got Just the dirtiest things we thought How can I be your savior when I can’t even save ya? I’ve got not explanation How can I be your savior when I can’t even save ya? I’ve got not explanation Except that I was high on the moment thinking I was God Now I’m standing here left to think the dirtiest things we thought The dirtiest things we thought Just the dirtiest things we - I was wrong and I knew it Thinking all I’ve lost Now I’m standing here left to think the dirtiest things we thought ‘Cause now they’re all I’ve got Just the dirtiest things we thought How can I be your savior when, baby, I can’t even save ya? How can I be your savior? How can I be your savior?

Just know that all I wanted from you was to know if I could still feel Like the way that I was told that I would feel if I could hold you This was never what I thought because I knew that it was something Other than what I was feeling All I knew is what I’m revealing now You know I never did you no harm Is this what you thought of, babe, when you thought of our love? It’s shallow and too deep But either way I can’t breathe Is this what you thought of, babe, when you thought of our love? And I’ll be the first to say it was my fault ‘Cause although I thought I was honest to what I was feeling I can’t help it when conceding there were times that I knew I was wrong And I knew you were only searching for the touch that I could give you If I only loved you now You know I never did you no harm Is this what you thought of, babe, when you thought of our love? It’s shallow and too deep But either way I can’t breathe Is this what you thought of, babe, when you thought of our love? I think it’s too late to try So all that I can say is goodbye to you I think it’s too late to try So all that I can say is goodbye to you

There still remains what you don’t know yet And I, and I’m not trying to take that away but It’s all the same and once you know it It’s hard to forget and you’ll wish I had spared you the pain I will never know enough yet it’s still too much I am just one man, yeah I think I’m thinking too much Overflowing like a flood Like an avalanche Just like an avalanche I’m so self-aware and comprehend all that you say, oh I’m so self-aware and comprehend all that you say, oh It’s not that I wish that you weren’t here But it’s that I wish what hurt me didn’t hurt you the same It’s not that I wish you were different But it’s that I wish that you couldn’t feel this kind of pain I will never know enough yet it’s still too much I am just one man, yeah I think I’m thinking too much Overflowing like a flood Like an avalanche Just like an avalanche I’m so self-aware and comprehend all that you say, oh I’m so self-aware and comprehend all that you say, oh I’m so self-aware and comprehend all that you say, oh I’m so self-aware and comprehend all that you say, oh

If you could hear me or comprehend the look in my eye What would you say? ‘Cause now I’m lost and I’m wondering if the pleasure is mine Or is it your pain? (And just) do as I say (and just) do as I want (And just) do as I tell you to do now ‘cause I am I’m stronger than ya (ya, and) if it’s between us (us, then) I am a human being And suddenly I’m so goddamn special now I’m so goddamn special now That you’ll receive only what I allow ‘Cause suddenly I’m so goddamn special now (Ya, and) Sometimes I love you but other times I set that aside For what I take My will above yours as long as I can justify It for my sake Just let me hold you (you, just) Like how I told you (you, just) Do as I tell you to do now ‘cause I am I’m smarter than ya (ya, and) if it’s between us (us, then) I am a human being And suddenly I’m so goddamn special now I’m so goddamn special now That you’ll receive only what I allow ‘Cause suddenly I’m so goddamn special now (Ya, and) Don’t make a sound but remember you can count on me If I don’t need ya, remember you can count on me My form of love is contingent on my every need On me, on me, on me, yeah

I’m afraid for a change to come And afraid that the change won’t stop Or maybe it’s just a fear that I won’t be happy Since that’s what I’ve always expected to happen I’m afraid you won’t need me now That you’ll think if you see me now “Well, I feel nothing when I look in your eyes. You’re just a shell of what you thought you were.” Whoa Wanted it all but not all of it was mine If to love is to let go I’d be better off alone I’m afraid that the things I want Are all things I don’t need at all Or maybe it’s just the fear this might all be pointless That it’s not worth the tears and should just be avoided I’m afraid if you speak to me That you’ll say when you think of me “Well, I feel nothing when I look in your eyes. You’re just a shell of what you thought you were.” Whoa Wanted it all but not all of it was mine If to love is to let go I’d be better off alone I don’t feel sorry for you ‘Cause you know You live in self-absorption I want to love you but I don’t know how There’s just too much to hate about you now Oh

And sometimes it takes a Cripple King to walk the proper mile Lost for words, left to be hurt, cleaning a mess in Wal-Mart’s aisle I felt the seasons: Winter, Summer, Spring And they all just felt like Fall It’s a question that you ask yourself when you don’t care at all And Cripple King My face turns blue You’ve crippled me I’ll cripple you Before the night is through It takes a sinking ship too long to signal help And sometimes it takes a darkened street to find your road to hell ‘Cause heaven’s gates are too damn shiny I think they would blind my eyes Then again, hell’s too damn hot It’s like the summer heat times nine And Cripple King My face turns blue You’ve crippled me I’ll cripple you Before the night is through You laugh your head off at the things that make most cry Since doing good’s not what you’ve heard There’s really wrong and really right But maybe ‘wrong’ is just what I would do if I was feeling scared Maybe ‘right’ is what I ought do but I don’t really care And Cripple King My face turns blue You’ve crippled me I’ll cripple you Before the night is through It’s getting hard to eat or sleep most of the night But come on, what the hell’s wrong? I should be thankful I’m alive But so what? There’s only one of you What difference could you make? Though if you recycle your trash then you might save the human race And Cripple King My face turns blue You’ve crippled me I’ll cripple you Before the night is through

The taste was lingering on Then, like that, the taste was gone Should I be relaxed or worried about the things that I love? Nothing was mine to begin I just exist in this skin I’d thank my heart for beating but it could stop that instant Without a warning it could ignore me This life would leave me if it stopped beating Without a need and without a reason It will do as it pleases But you’ll be all right I’ll be the best thing that’s ever been the worst thing that’s ever Happened to you now I’ll be the best thing that’s ever been the worst thing that’s ever Happened to you now There’s nothing other than this Nothing but why you exist And that’s up to you now That’s up to you now There’s nothing other than this Nothing but why you exist And that’s up to you now That’s up to you now